I lost a friend this week. I feel broken, like a little bit of me is missing. And still, I can’t bring myself to go back to him because he doesn’t respect me. I can’t be friends with someone that doesn’t respect me; both my authority as a manager and as a person in her own right.
Every night when we used to speak I have to draw myself away from my phone. Every day when I see him in the halls I have to avert my eyes, even though I can still smell his aftershave in a cloud as I walk around trying to pretend that it doesn’t affect me.
I’m hoping that this gets easier but really? It won’t until I physically move on. There’s no hope for me while he and I are still under the same roof.
one time i was at a nightclub and it was really dark and i met a guy and we didnt really talk he kind of just like guided me to the dance floor and we grinded on eachother and made out and he whispered wanna go to my place in my ear and i was like yeah ok so we went outside to get a cab and we looked at each other in the light of the streetlight and he turned out to be my bio. teacher and he literally sprinted away